As I finally breathe after my mini victory of ranking first on Amethyst Level in Spanish lessons on Duolingo, I wonder how much has changed since I last wrote a tete-a-tete letter to vent out my feelings of anxiety. But with this “new normal” (I know you are tired of it already), I wonder how others are taking it on with so many changes forced upon us due to the pandemic.
I hope you are doing well amidst these unpredictable times. Things have been okay for me. I started working on February 17, 2020. Never did I predict—I would be confined to work from home a month later. I am finding it challenging—I am still struggling to learn the various steps involved in my work and writing business emails after getting it proofread from my helpful colleagues. Nevertheless, I have broken down in anxiety feeling my learning has slowed down. Thankfully, my friends have time and again shaken me out of this mental cage of working till I burnout. So there it is, me at the moment.
A month into 2020 and I finally have a decent checklist of goals for this year. Call it my belated yearly resolutions, but I feel motivated when I have things to look forward to and achieve (plus the excitement to tick things off from a checklist is pure joy!). I like to keep my goals flexible—adding more things as the year progresses and crossing off the ones I manage to complete. Like any list of goals, we tend to get overwhelmed if we add too many. So, I have set goals that are doable, but still challenging and exciting. Here are my top ten goals for 2020. (In no particular order of importance.)
Recently my university declared the results of my postgraduate course and happy to inform, I have been awarded a Master of Science in Publishing! My graduation ceremony will take place on 31st October 2019, and I am fortunate that my family will be there to see me receiving the certificate. On the other hand, whenever I let my friends, peers and acquaintances know that I will be leaving the UK on 13th November 2019 with no return plans yet, they ask – how do you feel about leaving Edinburgh?
How easy it is to feel anxious when you stay in a confined room or a house for too long? And think of your never-ending to-do lists, wish lists, bills, and thoughts? Focusing on one thing at a time has become more challenging, with digital media to distract you from your fleeting uncomfortable thoughts most of the time.
I wanted to write this on the terrace; soaking in the light gentle breeze and sunset coloring the sky with a tint of orange on blues filled with puffy clouds. I am not writing with any specific purpose to convey in this piece. All I felt was the need to pour out words on paper. Abstract thoughts. Moments.